Deceit

"It's better to be hated for who you are, than be loved for who you are not."

....this quote has been echoing inside my head for the last couple of days. I hate it when somebody thinks I'm someone that I'm not! Of course I get all happy and everything when someone praises me, but at the end of the day, I know I'm not that person they think I am, and it kills me inside...

The Golden Rules

It amazes me how most of the time I learn things from people younger than me. And sometimes I even learn things from KIDS, aging 6 and 7 years old :)

But what I want to share now, is something I learned from a close friend of mine, who is two years younger than I am ... but he is waaaay smarter and ambitious than I am. He knows exactly what to do and what to say in almost every situation. He has plans to change the world. He even calls himself the "golden boy". We were talking about "being golden", and he told me that are rules that you first have to follow to be worthy of this title. Here are the Rules;

1. Don't use the words "giving up" or "trying" .... only "doing" and "taking actions".

2. People have the right to say what they want, and you have the right to listen to what YOU want.

3. Try to help people every time by putting your hands in theirs, and pulling them up, but when you feel that people are pulling you down, don't hesitate to leave their hands.

4. Do what you believe in only, not what people forces you to believe, and know that you are different than all other people. (and if they ask you "why?", tell them Einstein's teacher was less intelligent than him").

5. When you have a dream be sure you can achieve it any time any where .... Just believe in it!

That's all. I wish to be the "golden girl" one day :)

Growing Up .... Freaking Out!

My final semester at AUC is almost starting, and I AM FREAKING OUT! Suddenly, I don’t want to graduate. Nope, it doesn’t feel like the right thing for me now. I have no idea where I want to go next. Suddenly, all the dreams I had seem so far away, so unreachable. Watching all the people I knew graduated, is worrying me even more. They’re all complaining about how real life is harder than it seemed, and how they wish to go back to college. That’s another thing that’s troubling me, did I make the best out of those years I spent in college? or did I just go through each day, hoping that all this could end and that I can graduate and start all the fun? I wish I could stop time, sit, and think deeply about all that. I wish I could start over. I wish someone can tell me where to go and what's the right thing to do.