Misery

I can't stop listening to the same song since yesterday. I'm not just listening to it, I feel like I'm living inside the song. And what is really weird is that it doesn't apply to me.......oh wait, maybe it does!!!

It just feels good having this song on repeat, and sighing every time the song starts playing. It's a sad song, and I can't help but getting all the negative energy transfered from the song to my soul. A few tears start slipping from my eyes, and I feel miserable. Not sure where this misery comes from. The song is either a magical song casting me under its spell, or I'm simply very stupid.

I turn off this miserable song, and play my favorite happy song that always cheers me up whatever my mood is. But still. I feel the misery all over the place. It's not just in me. Everything is miserable around me. MISERY IN THE AIR. ummmm and I think I kind of like this feeling .... I decide to play the sad song again. I'm enjoying the pain. I want to sit there in the dark and feel sorry for myself.

Me, myself, I, and the misery .........

Self-Discpline !

Self-Discipline! This topic that I’ve been running into a lot lately, or let me say, this word that has been stalking me lately, as if trying to draw my attention that it’s time for a change.

Self-Discipline! From what I read, it says that we have different selves. Some of them are in contrast with each other, resulting in what they call “Inner Conflict”. One part of you may want you to work and be productive, while the others want you to lay back, be lazy, and have fun.
Hmmm I didn’t have to wonder much about myself, my lazy self always wins!

They say it’s not about YOU not wanting to do a certain thing, it’s just “a part” of you doesn’t want to do this thing, there’s another part that WANTS to do it. Your mission is to bring those two parts in harmony..

Another interesting thing I’ve read is that all our lives we are told what to do by our parents, teachers, professors and bosses. By the time we get the first chance to tell ourselves what to do, our “self-discipline muscle” is weak, because it hasn’t been exercising for long !

I'm planning to post another post talking about techniques to become self-disciplined, and I'd be more than glad if whoever comes across this page wants to share any useful techniques :)

Sources:
Self-Discipline in 10 Days.
The Road Less Traveled.

My Perfect Island..!

I open my eyes to find myself trapped on an island, and I don’t even know how I arrived there. I want to stay there, having something inside me assuring me that that’s the right place where I should be. It starts getting dark, and I start to wonder if I’m doing the right thing, standing there, waiting for something I don’t even know. I know the light is coming. I can feel it! I’ll wait. It’s going to show up. I believe! I keep waiting, but all I can feel is that it’s getting darker and darker. I start questioning the stars and talking to the moon. I look around, nothing but palm trees and sand. What did I expect anyway? It’s just a damn island! No, it’s NOT “just a damn island”. It’s different. It’s the perfect island I’ve always dreamt of living on. I finally got there, but how? Oh yes, now I remember. I made a wish, and it came true! And this is when I started doubting my dreams. Is this really what I wanted? YES, don’t you remember? You always wanted to live on the perfect island, and here you are! What’s wrong with you? Nothing, I just don’t feel comfortable here as I thought I would. It’s dark! And I’ve been waiting for the light to come for so long! Where’s the light? I look through the dark blue sea water to see my own reflection, and I start screaming at it “Where’s the light?” It just dumbly stares back at me, and doesn’t say a word. I raise my head up to the sky “Oh lord! I didn’t know it would be like that, it’s not the perfect island I wanted, there’s no light! Please please take me back to my small house, it would be better to live there in the light, than here in the dark. Oh lord! Please please!” I close my eyes, and keep praying silently from all my heart. I open my eyes to find myself lying on my bed in my small bedroom and I can see the sun rising through my bedroom window. I run to the window and smile ! Was that a dream? Or did it really happen? It felt so real! Anyway, I’m glad I’m back. I just love my house! However, I still believe that I will find the perfect island one day, and that it would be glowing with light ….

One Word - Action

“Every action in the universe has an impact on every being in that universe, or so our quantum scientists would have us believe”

I found this statement on a blog I was reading. Oh my God! If that is true, just imagining that every action you take, it’s not as simple as you think it is, nor as huge as you think lol, it’s MASSIVE, ENORMOUS, GIGANTIC and even mooooore! You can have an impact on every human being in the universe, just by taking action!