When you realize you've given too much of yourself to people who don't deserve it .. but it's too late cuz you've already lost a part of "you" through the process ..

I'm not sad that it's almost over

I'm not sad that everything has changed

I'm not sad that we don't have anything to say anymore

I'm sad because I know this is the truest feeling I've ever felt, and now it's gone ..

Sometimes it hurts TOO MUCH that I can't even feel the pain anymore .. No, actually it's still hurting badly, and I don't think it'll ever heal .. even if it does, it'll never be the same again ..

Listening to a James Morrison song, titled "Undiscovered".

My favorite line; "I'm not lost .. I'm not lost .. Just undiscovered"

I can totally relate. It applies to me very much.

On second thought, it applies to a lot of the students I've met at the school I teach in. They need someone to believe in them.

"Never ever give up!" vs. "Sometimes quitting is the bravest decision"

Starting my day with the view of the sun rising, while listening to my favorite playlist .. that's heaven on Earth :)

There are two theories to explain that;

ONE: you fall in love with someone, and then you get too close to them. After that, you get to see the faults of that other person, and you fall out of love. (Was that even love to begin with?)

TWO: you fall in love too fast, so obviously it ends too fast too.

It's not about wanting someone to care for you, it's about wanting THAT someone to care for you ..

A few seconds after I took the decision of getting over this whole obsession dilemma I've been living in for the last two months, I get to randomly read this quote "It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting."

Well, this time it was the closest thing to how I dreamed it would be, but still, I don't think it is "the right thing". Maybe I'm asking for too much? Maybe I don't deserve more than that? Maybe it's me not appreciating what I have? Me being ungrateful?

...whatever the answer to that is, my obsession this time doesn't feel right. It's time to put an end for that. I hope it's as easy as I'm making it sound writing those words.

I hope I just don't regret it ..

God has blessed me with you

When you meet someone, and suddenly it doesn't make any sense trying to remember how you've been living all your life without them !

If it was that simple !

You know this feeling you get when you listen to an inspiring song or watch a motivational video? It makes you feel on top of the world, and all your dreams and hopes seem much more simpler than you thought they were (or maybe it's just me). I listen to the song and visualize how I'll make my dream come true, and it makes perfect sense! I'm not exaggerating or anything, but this is really how I feel, and it's a good feeling, a great feeling actually. Then, the song is over, and everything is over with it. Reality is much worse than those few minutes I spent living inside the song. I once heard a quote "The problem with reality is that there's no background music" .. maybe that's true after all! Imagine having music in the background throughout our days, wouldn't that be awesome?! I'd be under the music's spell ALL the time, and maybe then I'd do all the things I want to do, and it would seem as simple as those scenes in a movie with someone doing the impossible just because there was background music. Maybe it's all about background music! maybe that's the secret!

oh ... assuming that I have a dream to start with !

I wish I was invisible

And if I lie down here .. and stay still long enough .. maybe then I'd disappear ..

The Hero

She tried to keep it all inside, but her tears betrayed her and came strolling down her face .. She kept thanking us for being heroes. I couldn't help but stare right into her eyes, and think, does she have any idea who the real hero is?!

Owned

When I first laid eyes on you, and even before I got to know your name, I could feel you owned a piece of my heart. Later on, when I got to know who you really were, I knewww that you owned my heart … Then, the day came when each of us was taking a different path with their lives; this is when I realized that YOU OWN ME …

the only ONE that matters !

It's like you're on stage and everyone is clapping and cheering for you...then you see this ONE person leaving the hall, and you don't hear the clapping anymore, you don't even care. You just want to go run after this person who just left.....cuz this person is the only ONE that matters !

...and this is all because of you

Afraid, yet fearless.

Worried, yet having faith.

I want to cry.............yet hold this smile I have on my face, and in my heart :))

Appreciate

I discovered that it's OK to love someone with all your heart, even if they don't love you back, BARDO KEEP LOVING THEM WITH ALL YOU HEART, maybe one day they will realize what they mean to you :) and true love aslan is loving a person without expecting anything from them in return, you love them because it makes you feel happy inside :)

BUT at the same time, don't be blind and not see those who TRULY love and care about you. Appreciate every single person you know, because people come into your life for a reason :)

Attachment

Attachment..........according to the dictionary it's "a feeling of affection for a person or an institution".

According to me, it's "destruction".

How can someone/something be a source of happiness to a person, but at the same time be a source of destruction?

I just don't get it, why do we have to hold on to something?

why can't we just live holding on to ourselves, not expect anything from anyone, and just don't give a damn about any thing?

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

YOU lost it!

You lost it! This is the end of it. You can never have it back. I am not letting you. It kills me how you come again and ask for it as if nothing ever happened, as if you were never wrong. Oh yes! You ARE never wrong, that's a fact you always tried to convince yourself with. But not all facts are true. This one is not.

You lost it, and it doesn't make me feel any guilt telling you that I'm not forgiving you. Maybe if you had apologized earlier, things would have been different...oh wait no they would not! what you did is unforgivable. Forever!

Deceit

"It's better to be hated for who you are, than be loved for who you are not."

....this quote has been echoing inside my head for the last couple of days. I hate it when somebody thinks I'm someone that I'm not! Of course I get all happy and everything when someone praises me, but at the end of the day, I know I'm not that person they think I am, and it kills me inside...

The Golden Rules

It amazes me how most of the time I learn things from people younger than me. And sometimes I even learn things from KIDS, aging 6 and 7 years old :)

But what I want to share now, is something I learned from a close friend of mine, who is two years younger than I am ... but he is waaaay smarter and ambitious than I am. He knows exactly what to do and what to say in almost every situation. He has plans to change the world. He even calls himself the "golden boy". We were talking about "being golden", and he told me that are rules that you first have to follow to be worthy of this title. Here are the Rules;

1. Don't use the words "giving up" or "trying" .... only "doing" and "taking actions".

2. People have the right to say what they want, and you have the right to listen to what YOU want.

3. Try to help people every time by putting your hands in theirs, and pulling them up, but when you feel that people are pulling you down, don't hesitate to leave their hands.

4. Do what you believe in only, not what people forces you to believe, and know that you are different than all other people. (and if they ask you "why?", tell them Einstein's teacher was less intelligent than him").

5. When you have a dream be sure you can achieve it any time any where .... Just believe in it!

That's all. I wish to be the "golden girl" one day :)

Growing Up .... Freaking Out!

My final semester at AUC is almost starting, and I AM FREAKING OUT! Suddenly, I don’t want to graduate. Nope, it doesn’t feel like the right thing for me now. I have no idea where I want to go next. Suddenly, all the dreams I had seem so far away, so unreachable. Watching all the people I knew graduated, is worrying me even more. They’re all complaining about how real life is harder than it seemed, and how they wish to go back to college. That’s another thing that’s troubling me, did I make the best out of those years I spent in college? or did I just go through each day, hoping that all this could end and that I can graduate and start all the fun? I wish I could stop time, sit, and think deeply about all that. I wish I could start over. I wish someone can tell me where to go and what's the right thing to do.