A Scene from the Future

In the morning, I get this from a friend;

ربنا يجمعنا في زمرة الذين أعزُّوا دينهم   :)

In the evening, I say Ameen to someone saying this prayer;

اللهم احشرنا فى زمرة المصطفى صلى الله عليه وسلم ..

Then I stopped for a moment and wondered which زمرة will I be a part of? Which زمرة do I want to be a part of? Will I be in a زمرة entering Jannah?

اللهم اجعنا فى زمرة عبادك الصالحين الذين أحبوك وأحببتهم ورضيت عنهم ..

Faith, no more for granted.

"I NEVER TAKE MY FAITH FOR GRANTED," that's the one thing Sarah Joseph kept repeating very sincerely during her talk last Saturday. 

She was a Christian, a very devoted committed Christian, and she said she lost her Faith once when she converted to Islam, but now she's never going to take it for granted.

After I left, I couldn't stop thinking how I have been taking my Faith for granted for so long .. not on purpose, but out of ignorance and carelessness. That doesn't make it any less of a shame though..

I'm tired of promising myself things that I never manage to do, so this time I'm not making any promises, just a sincere intention to start my journey of learning all about Islam. Questioning, Pursuing the truth, and Submitting to Allah. I couldn't help but think that being part of Zumaran must be Allah guiding me of where I should start. Ramadan is here. I'm off to a Umrah in a couple of days in-sha'Allah. SUB7AN ALLAH. I couldn't have made better plans for a new start..

Sarah also talked about how she stopped listening to music for a couple of years, not because she believed it's 7aram (forbidden) -as she doesn't believe it is- she only did that because it was a "distraction" for her along the way of getting closer to Allah. 

I'm getting away from many things that I consider current distractions in my life these days, and focusing instead on the things that matter.

Quoting a friend, "I want to revert to Islam" 

صدق وإخلاص

There was this hashtag on Twitter called #SedkWaEkhlas

The best tweet I loved was this one;

ابن القيم : فالصدق والإخلاص هو أن تبذل كلك لمحبوبك وحده ثم تحتقر ما بذلت في جنب ما يستحقه، ثم لا تنظر إلى ذلك 

#SedkWaEhklas

I somehow visualized when I do things for people that I love so much, and it really NEVER seems enough. And I always think they definitely deserve more, and that what I did was nothing. 

But سبحان الله when it comes to عبادات, I always feel يااااااه برافو عليا I did so and so today .. as if كتَّر خيرى lol

I wish I could reach this stage when nothing of my أعمال seem enough ..

I also remembered حكمة عطائية that someone shared before,

من علامات الاعتماد على العمل نقصان الرجاء عند وجود الزلل

That is so true! When I feel that I'm doing fine with عبادات, whenever I do something wrong during this phase, I feel like I have some credit, I don't need to worry about asking God for forgiveness .. which is the total opposite when I know that during one phase my life is a total mess and that I haven't been doing my best regarding عبادات, I feel more guilty then, and I'm more sincere when asking God for forgiveness ..

That was the first time for me to consciously realize that I do that.

يا رب ارزقنا الإخلاص يااا رب