...and this is all because of you

Afraid, yet fearless.

Worried, yet having faith.

I want to cry.............yet hold this smile I have on my face, and in my heart :))

Appreciate

I discovered that it's OK to love someone with all your heart, even if they don't love you back, BARDO KEEP LOVING THEM WITH ALL YOU HEART, maybe one day they will realize what they mean to you :) and true love aslan is loving a person without expecting anything from them in return, you love them because it makes you feel happy inside :)

BUT at the same time, don't be blind and not see those who TRULY love and care about you. Appreciate every single person you know, because people come into your life for a reason :)

Attachment

Attachment..........according to the dictionary it's "a feeling of affection for a person or an institution".

According to me, it's "destruction".

How can someone/something be a source of happiness to a person, but at the same time be a source of destruction?

I just don't get it, why do we have to hold on to something?

why can't we just live holding on to ourselves, not expect anything from anyone, and just don't give a damn about any thing?

So I say...
I think I better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I better leave right now

YOU lost it!

You lost it! This is the end of it. You can never have it back. I am not letting you. It kills me how you come again and ask for it as if nothing ever happened, as if you were never wrong. Oh yes! You ARE never wrong, that's a fact you always tried to convince yourself with. But not all facts are true. This one is not.

You lost it, and it doesn't make me feel any guilt telling you that I'm not forgiving you. Maybe if you had apologized earlier, things would have been different...oh wait no they would not! what you did is unforgivable. Forever!

Deceit

"It's better to be hated for who you are, than be loved for who you are not."

....this quote has been echoing inside my head for the last couple of days. I hate it when somebody thinks I'm someone that I'm not! Of course I get all happy and everything when someone praises me, but at the end of the day, I know I'm not that person they think I am, and it kills me inside...

The Golden Rules

It amazes me how most of the time I learn things from people younger than me. And sometimes I even learn things from KIDS, aging 6 and 7 years old :)

But what I want to share now, is something I learned from a close friend of mine, who is two years younger than I am ... but he is waaaay smarter and ambitious than I am. He knows exactly what to do and what to say in almost every situation. He has plans to change the world. He even calls himself the "golden boy". We were talking about "being golden", and he told me that are rules that you first have to follow to be worthy of this title. Here are the Rules;

1. Don't use the words "giving up" or "trying" .... only "doing" and "taking actions".

2. People have the right to say what they want, and you have the right to listen to what YOU want.

3. Try to help people every time by putting your hands in theirs, and pulling them up, but when you feel that people are pulling you down, don't hesitate to leave their hands.

4. Do what you believe in only, not what people forces you to believe, and know that you are different than all other people. (and if they ask you "why?", tell them Einstein's teacher was less intelligent than him").

5. When you have a dream be sure you can achieve it any time any where .... Just believe in it!

That's all. I wish to be the "golden girl" one day :)

Growing Up .... Freaking Out!

My final semester at AUC is almost starting, and I AM FREAKING OUT! Suddenly, I don’t want to graduate. Nope, it doesn’t feel like the right thing for me now. I have no idea where I want to go next. Suddenly, all the dreams I had seem so far away, so unreachable. Watching all the people I knew graduated, is worrying me even more. They’re all complaining about how real life is harder than it seemed, and how they wish to go back to college. That’s another thing that’s troubling me, did I make the best out of those years I spent in college? or did I just go through each day, hoping that all this could end and that I can graduate and start all the fun? I wish I could stop time, sit, and think deeply about all that. I wish I could start over. I wish someone can tell me where to go and what's the right thing to do.